The Huge Delay

I haven't used my blog in a very long time. I was very conflicted about it. In some ways i was embarassed of it, in other ways my life was in such shape that I felt nothing I said would be worth reading. I'm at a point now where I feel I'm ready to say something worthwhile again. That's not to say i've got my life fixed but I have my mindset in the right place. I know almost nobody read this thing anyway but hopefully if I write they will read.

I'm not sure where to begin. I think I have a lot of stuff to talk about but it's all just sitting around in my head like a warehouse. Give me a little time and I'll work something nice out. traditionally i've used 3 month chunks as "small" units of time so hopefully this wont be like that.

Don't ever believe me when I say I'm going to start updating regularly

I think it's been about 5 months or so since I updated or even looked at my blog so if I lost the few readers I did have then it's my own fault. This reclusiveness (what the hell my spellchecker tried to claim that wasn't a word) has not been toward just the internet. It has encompassed my whole lifestyle for the last...span of time. I'm really bad at judging time. Well backwards time anyhow, I have no trouble with punctuality. What I'm saying is (for anyone who doesn't know and might care) that I've been neither talking to nor seeing anyone for any reason; outside my household that is, and drifted into a lifestyle of solitude. I haven't had a job for....a long span of time too, so I have been able to fully devote myself to working out some personal issues and reading. a lot. I've been burning through books lately as my main source of recreation. I also spend several hours every day keeping up on current events and listening to lectures or audiobooks. I have learned more in the past 2 years than  I used to learn in 5 it feels like. I finally have been able to tackle some of the philosophical questions that I had avoided delving into because of the hugeness of the task for a long time. I'm approaching what I feel is a very sound and coherent worldview that has a lot of explanatory power when applied to world events and personal interactions and is also firmly rooted in strong empathy and a respect for human dignity. Through my eyes the world around me and people's behavior now makes sense. That's not especially comforting because most of what is going on in the world right now is awful and knowing the roots of it doesn't make it any easier to deal with. but if there's one thing I've always prized above happiness it's truth. I'd always rather comprehend and be less happy than ignorant and content.

Now that I've writting all that and am about to send it out into the internet to be read by random people I don't know, a few I do (hopefully), and the NSA; I will consider coming up with a topic for a new CONTENT post. I have a lot of things to say about a lot of topics since I've been silent so long. Just remember what the Title of this post is. Don't believe me when I make these sorts of promises.