Forget my last entry and just watch this youtube

Our society is shit and not worth saving.



We fucking climbed out of the primordial soup to become this. I think we can mark off earth as "experiment: failed".

people are pretending to be upset on tv because we have a leader that the world likes and might apologize for the assfucking we've given everyone of them. And republicans eat up this tough guy nonsense. That's fine for covering your insecurities in high school but not when you're a large country. gah

Freaking TARP fund-recieving banks spent 114m on lobbying Congress

Well I'm angry again. First I was angry because I was reading a thread that explained that some banks were refusing to sell off their toxic assests to the government for a fair price. This was supposed to be the crown jewel of the plan. But banks realized that if they have to sell these assests then they have to asses what's in them and how bad they actually are. What does that matter? Well if a house in a neighborhood is one of the bad loans then all the other houses in the neighborhood go down in value. that means that there could be a cascade of "good borrowers"'s investments will start to decline and everything turns to shit. The banks seem to think the right idea is to just pretend everything is fine. Their suggestion was that the government pay way more than the fair price they were offered. so to recap, the government is buying piles of shit for the banks, and the banks want more money for shit. So that was the initial anger thing. Now I see that they are using TARP money on fucking lobbyists. fuck lobbyists.sahds;lkajndlsna sh'gkldhaoryhg;kjvB

http://www.opensecrets.org/news/2009/02/tarp-recipients-paid-out-114-m.html

For the two or three peeps that read this:

I got a lot of writing done on the book you probably heard me mention i'm trying to write. this attempt may never make it as an actual book but it's introducing me to writing for an audience and also lets me see what my writing style really looks like. The cool part has been reading over everything i wrote like 3 days after and doing corrections. At the time i'm writing i think everything is perfect then when im correcting it i think all my corrections are the best choices. It's like i'm grading another kids paper in college and i'm like pshhh look at this loser using "due to the fact that" instead of "because" he's not payed by the letter, get that shit outta here! oh wait that was mine. My only consoling answer to this process is I'm always better in the future.  
Ok here's one time where your comments might slightly count. the way my writing process is going is i think about a character or a scene that might happen in the book world and just start writing. later i will edit the hell out of it and make it a coherent narative ( hopely). I'd say over half this project will be scrap, but I hate to see it wasted like that. So i figure that since i have a Blog, if you (adrian) and whoever else stumbled here by accident could read like mini portions of a chapter or an idea or something and put some feedback. they say to avoid that kind of thing before you're done or else you wont finish but i'm not worried really.
The main challenge will be putting my notepad scribbles into computer text. so if you want em then lemme know